school is no longer stressful as i realized i do not care about what i am studying.  though sad, i'm enjoying the moments with my lady here, and awaiting days of longer sun and corrected priorities.  this weekend was a taste of that, and it tasted damn good.

we're supposed to enjoy the journey, but that doesn't mean that parts of the journey aren't painful.  of course, someday, when things are right again, i'll say that days like today still had its piece in the puzzle.

back to studying the nuances of the well oiled machine.  it could be worse.

it is 206am, and i just got home from one and one...  i'm not shit faced!  okay, i just wrote a note to myself on why i shouldn't get shit faced when i go out...  it was really hard for me to write it.  alcohol and i have had a complicated history, and god damn, it's been good and bad....  and the bad is just too too heavy.

man man man.  i have a bad blood line...  everything you could imagine including alcoholism!!  and that is not an excuse but a dead fact...

lighter notes...


finishing Greenspan's autobio.  Solid...  connects past knowledge...  fairly dry at points, but!!!  the greatest parts of the book are the relationships he alludes to in his life that have expanded his intellectual capacity - most significantly, Ayn Rand.  Moreover,  Greenspan = the epitome of a New Yorker ^100...  or mega-New Yorker.  no no.  maybe that's not it.  I think it's more that his priorities are placed on the same things that most New Yorkers value.  Too general for you?  Fine, but remember there can be two edges to a sword.

have listening to the new Jack Johnson throughout the last few days.  Decent.  Need to spend some more time with it.  The sound is more complex than the past...  mainly more electric, but it's definitely not harsh by any means.  that's right...  i'm giving into more pop music lately.  I lately downloaded the Timerblake album after balking for nearly a year...  wait!  before you write me off, listen to Love Stoned, and wait for the interlude.  If you don't love that shit, then your personality is contrived.

Okay. read, sleep.  i'm going to start posting, and this time around, no fucking editing...  accept my  typos, grammar errors..  in return for a little blood.  yah?  it's a fucking deal.  you and me baby you and me.

 i'm back.

 I'm back.